| A mere two words said, and instantly I lost it. ( "It's okay..." ) It hurts more and more everyday, I can't forgive myself, I can't forget simple memories of her. I can't fill the void of someone who redefined everything I am, gave me purpose, a reason, a life. If you were to ask anything of me, I would do it, no matter what...yet I can't even do things for myself. Your gifts, my most valued possesions. It makes no sense. Of all the things I've done wrong, losing you has been the absolute worst, absolute most stupid, and the absolute most crippling thing I've ever done. Subliminatlity, my greatest tool, is now my worst enemy. For my own sake, I must be direct, but for hers, I mustn't. I can't finish... My mind is racing, a fractured mess of memories, thoughts, and emotions. My mind is fraying, practically unravelling at the seems. I hate that my only comfort is convincing myself you're happy. I cry out to God for your safety, your prosperity, your happiness, sanity, everything. I pray he blesses you for the miracle you are. |
